You do know it's you standing in your own way, right??? You've blamed your daddy for not being there, your mom that didn't show love or protect you.. your EX for a numerous of things.. you're straight up mad... and rightfully soooooo. You didn't deserve it but God says.. what the devil meant for evil... I'm about to use it for my good.
People have free will.. He didn't let those bad things happen to you, but He knew you could over come them and be powerful after your forgiveness and healing.. and through your testimony... you will set millions free...God gave you the grace to conquer this mess and make it your testimony. Me and God BELIEVE IN YOU.. I can write several blogs about being free and letting things go, yet... it's YOU who is stopping you! Let go of all my anger towards them and I'm focused on healing. Break your own walls down and trust God in this knew season. Rejection is God's protection from your past. He used them to get you healed, then He removed them. What you thought was failure and final was a set up for your COMEBACK!! Praise God! You thought you couldn't make it.. but you are!! With God it always works out.. He's Got YOU! You thought you didn't matter.. oh.. but you do!! Me and God are SOOOOO proud of YOU!!